There are times when I deal with specific incidents and determined I have taken all I am able to take, reaching my wits end. I go to work to confront the issues of daily tasks and unplanned situations just to find that something has been overlooked. At home the demands of fatherhood providing correction, oversight, protection and wisdom for teenagers. As the situations mount and the storms continue I begin to establish a point in my spirit where I determine the fight is over and I spiritually check out.
I place everything on auto pilot assuming it will go away if I ignore it, only to retain the feeling that I am losing control. The reality is that I never had control.To reach the full extent of what my intellect can handle causes feelings of instability and fear as if the world is falling apart. Not being able to throttle situations to suit my ability to handle them reveals my weaknesses and limitations. I have learned that the feelings of security we get from thinking we have it all together can produce false hope and a fake security. In the book of Mark chapter 4 we see how seasoned fishermen were found to be in a situation that caused them to see their lack of control and understand the threshold of their faith and ability to trust that things will be well even when they are unable to control the outcomes. These men were very familiar with the dangers of being on the sea. A single storm caused them to be fearful for their lives and feel completely powerless. Calling on Jesus makes up for our inability to weather the storms and to manipulate the outcomes. We need times of weakness to reveal our water marks to be able to press for the true Mark (Phil. 3:14) that will provide the prize in store for those who believe.
